If there is one thing I hate more then anything else it’s being lied to. I don’t deserve my poor heart doesn’t deserve it, and I don’t think I can truly handle it today has been the day from hell. And to learn things I thought were really where just a lie so someone could get laid was the cherry on top of everything! I can’t believe I was so stupid to believe everything. My heart is broken it all hurts more then I can even explain I hate feeling like a fool. :(
Moments when you realize how much someone means to you and it’s scary because you know you can’t be with that person ever. It’s a little heart breaking.
For who could ever learn to love a beast?
He’s just a human that I cared… Well care about a lot. He means the world to me and all I want for him is to be happy. It’s a tough situation due to bad timing for the both of us. I wish it was different and he would want me to wait for him because I would in a hear beat. But he thinks I deserve someone in America and he can’t do that. So it hurts but it is what it is. I adore him and I will not forget or block out my feelings for him but I’m not holding out hope that he’ll ask me to wait for him even if he knows I would. So I’m learning to just move on by going on dates and actually wanting to be there and not wish I was with him. It’s a struggle but it’s a day by day thing and one never knows what will happen.
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